Planting Seeds In Their Minds For The Future

Currently Listening To :: Just The Two Of Us :: Toshi Kubota

For those who have been reading my blog for some time (not to mention those who know me quite well), know that music is something I CAN'T do without. I mean, you only have to take a look at my blog entires to see that music is with me all the time. And although the only musical instrument I can play with any great proficiency is my CD/MD player, I've come to accept that in this case, I'm probably only ever going to be a consumer of music culture.

As a child, I was exposed to a lot of music, but none that I'd really care to remember. Long car rides bring back memories of John Denver, Julio Iglesias and Barbara Streisand (what, you thought I was goign to LINK them?!?). So as my own music tastes have matured and taken their own directions, I wonder what I'll be listening to in the car when I'm driving my 3 kids around the place (that's a boy and two cute girls fyi). Having started to make some MD's for some friends (which I think is something that can be quite a personal experience), my mind has started to wonder...

What five artists or albums would I want my kids to hear growing up?

This process will take a while I'm thinking, but please feel free to drop ideas on your own fave artists or albums...oh, and some reasons why would help too.

Pause...Stop...

Currently Listening To :: Round and Round (Remix) :: Jonell w/Method Man

As my life continues in a limbo-like existence and my concepts of time and space are becoming increasingly blurred, I'll be a bit quiet while I sort things out...

Oh, and get some study done for these exams coming too.

So if you got the exam blues, post a message...

If you got the employment blues, post another message...

And if you got the relationship blues, post a third for a bonus points score...

Love Yourself...

Currently Listening To :: Self Love :: Jaguar Wright

This last week has been a bit of a debacle, to put it lightly. Jobs have dropped out of the picture in flames, and I'm hitting the wall hard. A close friend asked me if it would help to write about these issues, but honestly, I've found that no one anyone can tell me can make me feel better. It's something I've got to deal with; I'm building the bridge all the way across the raging river on my own. So as I turn introspective for a while, hear some snippets of the 9 minutes and 15 seconds of what I'm hearing...and if you like it, go get that; don't bootleg...

Apologies for the typing, but right now, it's one of the few mistakes I feel I can deal with...

Caught up in a wave of deception,
From this shit, your heart dun learn no lesson,
So what you do, you keep on playing,
Ya play on, playa...

From love to confusion,
you keep gainin' but you keep losin',
so what, you find comfort in your boosin, boosin, heart bruisin'...
I'm the one...

From your denials to your delusions,
Everyting you gain you keep loosin'
What you not know is an illusion,
So what the hell you doin'?
Here's looking at love kid...

You wake up every morning but you not sleep,
You taste food, but you not eat,
You're running fast but you're not on your feet,
And your speed, is dead...

You run out but you not know,
You climb inside but can't grow,
Faster and faster until you fall to the floor,
You scream "no", but don't stay low..

I mean this is for anyone of any age...
Get up off your ass,
Forget the past,
And remember the future is the only fuckin' thing you got, so run with that shit...

Love yourself,
Believe in yourself...
Be true to yourself,
Be you for yourself...

Pan-Asian Pride

Currently Listening To :: Aluba+Tekwando (Live) :: Nuo Mi Tuan (Sticky Rice)

Today I saw sights that filled me with pride in being Asian, and if I were Korean, I'd be brimming with pride after their historic first ever World Cup Soccer win! Japan came within a dyed hair follicle of winning their opening match against Belgium too...I'm so inspired, I feel like dyeing my hair that kind of bone colour sported by a number of the Japanese players.

Now if only China can get off its butt and put some balls in the back of the net...

HOO-HA-HA-HA!!!!

Mass Confusion

Currently Listening To :: Speed Law :: Mos Def

Ah, Sunday morning...the perfect time to sit back and relax, take ten paces back and observe where I'm at. A empty bowl of Just Right sits on my right, a cup of luke-warm milo on my left. My speakers tell me I'm getting 3D sound, but the last time I checked, 2 speakers, no matter how large, doesn't make for surround sound.

*Sigh* Have I ever said I don't believe in fate? Well, I don't. The idea of fate irks me somewhat...

fate n.
1. the ultimate agency that predetermines the course of events.
2. the inevitable fortune that befalls a person or thing.
3. the end or final result.
4. death, destruction, or downfall.

While the Collin's Concise Dictionary isn't exactly the definitive definator, 'twil serve. The thought that the course of events in my life is already predetermined, or that my fortune is inevitable, just doesn't sit well on my shoulders or the brow of my forehead. When problems and confusion that I can't control creep into my life, like they are now, my shoulders slump and my brow forrows into a frown. Not being able to affect a situation, especially one as personal as my own life, makes me feel powerless, and all the breakfast ceral in the world won't make it better...

Does this mean I'm a control freak? Perhaps in some eyes, but I don't personally think so. If I can't even care about myself, then how am I to care for someone else? Wanting something to happen, putting words into action, and putting my all into my action. That's been the last few weeks activities, yet I'm still at someone else's mercy, the whims of those who hold the power over my short term future. If I seem abstract, that's because I'm pertaining to all subject matters; not just looking for work, for romance, for some happiness. I'm looking for all of them, so my focus is wide, and so my mindstate is open to 3D pressure from every angle.

Enough.